Anyone else have the constant feeling of wanting to look good? I don’t mean just physically either. It’s like this need to look good to the world. You’ve gotta have the right clothes, right look, right attitude, right relationships, right amount of money, and just the right amount of status.

Sometimes it feels like you’re drowning in this never-ending desire to look good enough to everyone else. Sometimes it feels like you’re constantly losing, and always behind.

I feel that sometimes too. It ebbs and flows. On my bad days, I believe the lies. I believe that I am a failure. I believe that all my opportunities have passed, and I forget that everyday is a new opportunity to reconstruct, to try again, to build again, and to serve.  

On my good days, I remember and believe that externals can’t define the way I feel about myself. No amount of status, or impression I could make on someone else, will fill that empty part of me that needs acceptance of self.