God

I started this journey back around the summer of 2018. Ever since then it’s been a slow progression of decisions that have built off each other to create this grandiose plan.

Each step I’ve taken, I’ve encountered fear, doubt, and discomfort, but I’ve just kept walking forward. Nothing has been perfect, and a lot of my expectations have had to be restructured.

When I used to think of God, I thought of rules and rigidity. I had a lot of fear towards God, and felt like the only way to please God was to follow all the rules as closely as I possibly could. This led to a cycle of shame, and performance, which was often times only reinforced by culture.

When I think of God now, I don’t think about needing to be perfect. Instead I think of grace.