Organic Reconstruction
Here are the definitions of the words ‘organic’ and ‘reconstruction’ as defined by dictionary.com
Organic:
Continuous, gradual, natural development.
Reconstruction:
A thing that has been rebuilt after being destroyed.
The action or process of reconstructing or being reconstructed
I came to a position in life where I felt ‘stuck.’ I couldn’t move forward, and I definitely couldn’t go backwards. I just felt like I was a failure, like I was behind everyone else in life.
Beyond that, I couldn’t make changes. I felt like I had to live up to this image of who I was ‘supposed to’ be. It was a tremendous pressure trying to be ‘perfect’ all the time, and to please everyone else. It was paralyzing.
It took breaking down, before I realized I had the power to make changes. It took breaking down to realize that I didn’t ‘have to’ be perfect. Besides, I couldn’t, even if I tried. It’s unattainable.
Since then, I’ve been on a journey; a journey to grow, and to make changes. I don’t want to be stuck behind fear, or perfectionism, or the fear of failure.
I call this process, ‘organic reconstruction.’ It’s organic, because life is best lived organically. If I continue trying to control everything, I’ll become stuck.
I also talk about ‘Reconstruction’ because I think we all have ideas of how life will go. Many times, however, life doesn’t go like this. Things change. We change. If we cannot change, we cannot grow. If we cannot grow, we cannot move. Reconstruction is all about rebuilding. It’s about letting go of control, letting go of how it’s ‘supposed to’ be, and using what we have to create something beautiful. At the end of the day, life is a mess for everyone. It can be a regular mess, or a beautiful mess.
Organic Reconstruction:
Organic Reconstruction is a term I created, and have been using to describe my newer art. As I’m writing this, I’ve been going back and forth for days on what a good definition for it would be. I realized I was really forcing it, which is kind of the opposite of letting go of control, so I’m just gonna sit on it for a while, and let it happen more naturally.