I Took Back Control

I took back control from the people who took it from me. They were all nice people but I was giving up too much. I was giving up myself in pursuit of their security.

I didn’t know it, but they were holding me back. Well, I guess they weren’t actually holding me back. I was holding myself back. Regardless, I needed time away. I needed time to make this. I needed time to leave the expectations. I needed time to reconstruct.

It’s surprising in hindsight how difficult it was to leave, to make the decision to go away. I was pretty afraid what people would think of me if I stopped following people and ‘liking’ all their stuff, of if I just left social media in general. And although that fear hasn’t fully subsided, and I still care to some degree what others think, I certainly don’t regret the choice to take a break. I’m grateful I chose to face that fear head on.