What You Think, And Fear, And Growth

Before I started the idea for this concept of ‘Organic Reconstruction’, I cared so much about what everyone else thought about me. I felt helplessly tied to other people’s expectations of me. I was scared to take risks, because I didn’t want to let anyone down, and scared to make mistakes, because I thought I had to be perfect. I thought I had to be perfect, because I thought that’s what people wanted from me.

I felt so much fear in taking any steps forward, and I felt so much regret in taking any backward. Saying I felt like I couldn’t move was an understatement.

Its a horrible way to feel, when you feel trapped by what other people think of you. It’s a terrible way to feel, when you feel like you have to impress everyone else.

On the flip side, it is so freeing to realize that you don’t have to please anyone. Real friends will stay with you and understand. Real supporters will support you as you grow and learn on your own.

If you always care what others think, you’ll live in constant fear. If you live in constant fear, you’ll never grow.

“I used to care what people thought
But now I care more
Man nobody out here's got it figured out
So therefore, I've lost all hope of a happy ending
Depending on whether or not it's worth it
So insecure, no one's perfect”

- Childish Gambino, V. 3005